New experiences for 2026
Apr. 28th, 2026 05:56 pmThings I have learned after prepping for and then going for my first city race:
- Anti-chafing tape feels like a spurious purchase if you're a filthy casual (me), but chafing is AWFUL and HURTS LIKE THE DICKENS, and anything that can prevent that is good. Soft, waterproof plasters are functionally similar, but comparatively more expensive.
- If one is wearing the run's official shirt, test said shirt out by wearing it in a pre-run, to check if it will chafe in new and exciting places. >:(
- Before: always remember to stretch. After: always remember to cool off. Even if they're for short fun runs.
- Bring a small towel to wipe yourself afterward. Sweat isn't as much a problem when running at home since you can shower immediately after, but when you have to travel from the run venue back home, might as well make the trip as comparatively pleasant as possible.
- Put the bib on before going to the venue (using a mirror), unless you have someone to help put it on at the venue.
- Wearing shades is great! They make me feel way less self-conscious about where I'm looking at, especially because of the photographers along the route.
- There are photographers! And you can search the database for your photos based on your race number! But you will never look as cool as you think you do, and that's okay.
- Do not be self-conscious about wearing a running belt, running pouch, or having bulging pockets if you're carrying stuff. Lots of people will be wearing/having the same. A backpack is also perfectly fine. (I don't know why I felt backpacks would be weird, like I assumed everyone would want to run as light as possible.) There will be people in full cosplay, for crying out loud. (I saw a Squid Game guard and a hijabi Loki.)
- Have fun, and don't be pressured to do more than you're willing or ready to.
Another one: Fragezeichentuch
Apr. 27th, 2026 07:15 pmI just noticed looking at the picture it needs some more aggressive blocking, but otherwise it is done, yay.

( charts, knitting instructions in German, yell if you want me to attempt to translate them )

( charts, knitting instructions in German, yell if you want me to attempt to translate them )
FIC: Close the Distance, Lock Us In (Guardian: Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan) [Teen]
Apr. 27th, 2026 06:10 pmWhere has the month gone?! All right, a lot of it has gone into writing, but that surely can't be all ... *looks around, waves at everyone* Hi! I'm still here. *g*
Anyway! I wrote longer stories for
fffx and
highadrenalineexchange, both of which revealed this month, and
fffx has already had author reveals. So now that I'm actually posting, of course this is the first thing to post about!
It took me a while to actually settle on what I wanted to write for this exchange. I had another idea that I hope to tackle some day, but I think I picked the right thing in the end! It came together pretty well once I actually decided.
It's Guardian again, canon divergence during the early episodes - set right after the face-stealer case (episode 4) and before the water kidnapping/Butler Wu case (episode 5). Zhao Yunlan gets to interact more closely with the Black-Cloaked Envoy, rather than Professor Shen, and gains some insights. There is coughing up blood and wound-tending and tea and conversation, and all of it takes place in a very constrained space, because I trapped them together. *g*
If you want, there's even a visual reference for the space they're stuck in, because my beta noted that things weren't completely clear, so I made myself a reference for editing purposes. Have a floor plan!
(And many thanks to
china_shop for beta-reading, as usual! ♥)
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Title: Close the Distance, Lock Us In
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Fandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV 2018)
Relationship: Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan, Zhao Yunlan & Black-Cloaked Envoy
Characters: Shen Wei, Zhao Yunlan, mini-cameos by SID members
Content tags: Episode Related, Post-Episode 4, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Zhao Yunlan & the Black-Cloaked Envoy, Protective Shen Wei, Hurt Shen Wei, Protective Zhao Yunlan, Trapped Together, Black and White Energy, a bit of Hurt/Comfort, Identity Porn
Summary:
The Black-Cloaked Envoy slammed down into the nondescript little flat like a thunderbolt from the heavens, not a moment too soon.
Zhao Yunlan and the Black-Cloaked Envoy, trapped together early on: how much of a difference can it really make? Turns out, a surprising amount.
Anyway! I wrote longer stories for
It took me a while to actually settle on what I wanted to write for this exchange. I had another idea that I hope to tackle some day, but I think I picked the right thing in the end! It came together pretty well once I actually decided.
It's Guardian again, canon divergence during the early episodes - set right after the face-stealer case (episode 4) and before the water kidnapping/Butler Wu case (episode 5). Zhao Yunlan gets to interact more closely with the Black-Cloaked Envoy, rather than Professor Shen, and gains some insights. There is coughing up blood and wound-tending and tea and conversation, and all of it takes place in a very constrained space, because I trapped them together. *g*
If you want, there's even a visual reference for the space they're stuck in, because my beta noted that things weren't completely clear, so I made myself a reference for editing purposes. Have a floor plan!
(And many thanks to
**
Title: Close the Distance, Lock Us In
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Fandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV 2018)
Relationship: Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan, Zhao Yunlan & Black-Cloaked Envoy
Characters: Shen Wei, Zhao Yunlan, mini-cameos by SID members
Content tags: Episode Related, Post-Episode 4, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Zhao Yunlan & the Black-Cloaked Envoy, Protective Shen Wei, Hurt Shen Wei, Protective Zhao Yunlan, Trapped Together, Black and White Energy, a bit of Hurt/Comfort, Identity Porn
Summary:
The Black-Cloaked Envoy slammed down into the nondescript little flat like a thunderbolt from the heavens, not a moment too soon.
Zhao Yunlan and the Black-Cloaked Envoy, trapped together early on: how much of a difference can it really make? Turns out, a surprising amount.
Book Log: Empire of Refugees
Apr. 27th, 2026 10:38 amVladimir Hamed-Troyansky's Empire of Refugees: North Caucasian Muslims and the Late Ottoman State was a spontaneous get in an unfamiliar topic, and on top of that more of an academic text with dry prose, which made it a bit of a challenging read to get through. When I say "dry" I also mean functional and clear, and it's still a well-written book that lays out its arguments and paints a very thorough picture of the late Ottoman refugee crises and population exchanges with Russia through the end of the Ottoman empire, and with particular focus on North Caucasians and Circassians in particular.
Very new topic to me so a bit of a hurdle in there as well, though I have read about the Ottoman empire before and, well, Armenian genocide and the bad choices through WWI, but this book really delves into a specific topic I didn't know anything about. It's really interesting to look at a time as nation-states were developing and borders hardening, and how that influences choices in which refugees to take and which to reject, and how said refugees were accepted and integrated (well, or badly, or extremely badly) and the political considerations that have so many consequences to today.
Like, of course in the aftermath of various wars, the Ottoman empire would want to get rid of as much of its non-Muslim population and fill that gap with Muslim refugees (or muhajir, as some would describe), with Russia wanting the opposite by getting rid of its unwanted Muslim populations in trade for Christians. It's population manipulation on a grand scale, dressed up in promises of an Islamic empire (dar-al salam) accepting its needy co-religionists into their bosom, but also cold in its usage of those refugees to strengthen borders, improve its tax collection, put pressure on rebellious bedouin, and increase productivity of the land. The implication of the belief coreligionists will be more loyal to the state than not, and is a crucial factor along with ethnicity in actualization of a nation-state -- all elements that play out to painful conclusions through WI and WII, but here are elaborated on in their specificity. The book also argues that some of the mechanisms and lessons these population exchanges were used in later population exchanges after WWI, up to the India-Pakistan Partition.
The book also zooms down, to the human cost of these population exchanges, of what people sacrificed (if they went willingly), of what people did to survive and sometimes thrive, of the desperate attempts to hold on to family and cultural heritage through these upheavals, of those who fled their homelands but returned. Surviving letters are used to flesh these stories out, and the book specifically uses three case studies of North Caucasian refugee areas, with the Balkans representing an area that failed in many ways, and the Levant as an area that succeeded greatly, in part because of the Hijaz railway that allowed economic prosperity up to the future nation-state existence of Jordan (whose current capital is a former refugee site). Interesting stuff, though a little overwhelming in its newness to me.
Very new topic to me so a bit of a hurdle in there as well, though I have read about the Ottoman empire before and, well, Armenian genocide and the bad choices through WWI, but this book really delves into a specific topic I didn't know anything about. It's really interesting to look at a time as nation-states were developing and borders hardening, and how that influences choices in which refugees to take and which to reject, and how said refugees were accepted and integrated (well, or badly, or extremely badly) and the political considerations that have so many consequences to today.
Like, of course in the aftermath of various wars, the Ottoman empire would want to get rid of as much of its non-Muslim population and fill that gap with Muslim refugees (or muhajir, as some would describe), with Russia wanting the opposite by getting rid of its unwanted Muslim populations in trade for Christians. It's population manipulation on a grand scale, dressed up in promises of an Islamic empire (dar-al salam) accepting its needy co-religionists into their bosom, but also cold in its usage of those refugees to strengthen borders, improve its tax collection, put pressure on rebellious bedouin, and increase productivity of the land. The implication of the belief coreligionists will be more loyal to the state than not, and is a crucial factor along with ethnicity in actualization of a nation-state -- all elements that play out to painful conclusions through WI and WII, but here are elaborated on in their specificity. The book also argues that some of the mechanisms and lessons these population exchanges were used in later population exchanges after WWI, up to the India-Pakistan Partition.
The book also zooms down, to the human cost of these population exchanges, of what people sacrificed (if they went willingly), of what people did to survive and sometimes thrive, of the desperate attempts to hold on to family and cultural heritage through these upheavals, of those who fled their homelands but returned. Surviving letters are used to flesh these stories out, and the book specifically uses three case studies of North Caucasian refugee areas, with the Balkans representing an area that failed in many ways, and the Levant as an area that succeeded greatly, in part because of the Hijaz railway that allowed economic prosperity up to the future nation-state existence of Jordan (whose current capital is a former refugee site). Interesting stuff, though a little overwhelming in its newness to me.
escapril 2026: #25 thread
Apr. 25th, 2026 09:38 pmwound tightly around itself
in knots or simply hanging
loose, unspooling
waiting for a finer point
to guide and strengthen
to make a whole
in knots or simply hanging
loose, unspooling
waiting for a finer point
to guide and strengthen
to make a whole
escapril 2026: #24 needle
Apr. 24th, 2026 04:02 pmpushing to make a point
an entryway for connection
to tie things together
but a needle by itself
cannot join, sew -
it only makes a hole
an entryway for connection
to tie things together
but a needle by itself
cannot join, sew -
it only makes a hole
escapril 2026: #23 catacombs
Apr. 23rd, 2026 10:44 pmthis is it
the empire of the dead
only crowns of bone
in these vast halls
sceptres pulled from sepulchres
in the form of femurs
ivory teeth bared
rictus grin triumphant
empty sockets surveying
the riches here below
in eternal imperium
that slowly conquers all
the empire of the dead
only crowns of bone
in these vast halls
sceptres pulled from sepulchres
in the form of femurs
ivory teeth bared
rictus grin triumphant
empty sockets surveying
the riches here below
in eternal imperium
that slowly conquers all
escapril 2026: #22 past lives
Apr. 23rd, 2026 11:19 amMy soul hoards its treasures
Vast and unending as the night sky
A sky so different to these eyes
Than the eyes that first beheld it
Aeons of wisdom earned, then locked away
Life after life, death after death
Places and people and passions it clings to
Things I've loved so long I couldn't say
When or how I fell
I don't believe in love at first sight
But I do believe in recognition
My soul will see with all of the eyes
That came before and say "hey,
I remember you."
Vast and unending as the night sky
A sky so different to these eyes
Than the eyes that first beheld it
Aeons of wisdom earned, then locked away
Life after life, death after death
Places and people and passions it clings to
Things I've loved so long I couldn't say
When or how I fell
I don't believe in love at first sight
But I do believe in recognition
My soul will see with all of the eyes
That came before and say "hey,
I remember you."
escapril 2026: #21 turning of seasons
Apr. 23rd, 2026 10:50 amThe winters seem to feel longer these days
Is it simply that we're not having fun
That makes time grounded, refusing to fly
That keeps Helios from raising the sun
How could anyone blame Persephone
If she wanted to stay below the ground
Warm and safe and treasured by her husband
Away from man-made, cacophonic sound
But sure as the world still spins, stars still shine
The rivers stay flowing and birds still sing
As bleak as it seems when the days are short
The seasons turn and change with everything
The flowers sleeping in their cold, dark beds
Triumphantly raise their delicate heads
Is it simply that we're not having fun
That makes time grounded, refusing to fly
That keeps Helios from raising the sun
How could anyone blame Persephone
If she wanted to stay below the ground
Warm and safe and treasured by her husband
Away from man-made, cacophonic sound
But sure as the world still spins, stars still shine
The rivers stay flowing and birds still sing
As bleak as it seems when the days are short
The seasons turn and change with everything
The flowers sleeping in their cold, dark beds
Triumphantly raise their delicate heads
escapril 2026: #20 windows
Apr. 23rd, 2026 10:23 aman open door is an invitation
a closed door is an answer
but a window is an insight
a chance to breathe
a chance to see
what's on the other side
without committing to a knock
without having to unlock
a closed door is an answer
but a window is an insight
a chance to breathe
a chance to see
what's on the other side
without committing to a knock
without having to unlock