Rambling January Day 1
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ravurian kicked me off for the month with "Talk to me about your writing. Fanfic only, or do you have original work, too? What are the stories that matter to you?"
I love telling stories. I make them up inside my head constantly, and have done ever since I was a kid. I sometimes think that writing them down was simply a way to not be a pathological liar. ("What did you do at the weekend, Claire?" "Well, I rode a dragon all the way to a mystical realm and fought a war and became a queen!" "Really?" "No...")
I've thought about doing original stuff but, if I'm being honest, I like the ease of sliding into an already made universe, where you don't have to spend three pages describing what someone's hair looks like because if you say to someone 'Clint Barton' then they already have an image in their head.
(The caveat to this is that I still have some truly awful poetry that was written when I was younger, but I think most people have some of that hidden in their underwear drawer.)
I always find it kind of bemusing when people say "Oh, you should write your own stuff," because my response to them wants to be "Why? Why should I?" Part of me feels that they say that because they don't get fanfic and, in their heads, they're trying to legitimize spending time writing about fictional characters. I think it should be case of writing original stuff is you want to, if you have ideas for it, but certainly not because you get told you have to, or you should.
I write for movies, books and shows I enjoy, because I want to see more about the characters. Sometimes, it's because I'm watching or reading and my mind goes off into a tangent of 'ooh, but what would have happened if...' And, sometimes, it's because in a totally shallow way, I really would like to see Peter Hale riding Chris Argent like a pony, and I know I'm not going to get that from the show. So, if that means I've got to write it to be able to see it, then so be it.
When it all comes down to it, I like writing. I like writing stuff that other people will enjoy, I like writing stuff that other people will side-eye, and I even occasionally like writing stuff that possibly puts more of me on the paper than I'd like to admit.
I get the same clutch of panic in my gut each time I hit 'post' on a story. Admittedly, there are ones I panic about more. I always worry about the first story in a fandom. Will people like it, will they think it's terrible, will this influence every bit of interaction I'm ever going to have with someone in this fandom?
And then I have fandoms like Tremors, where the fact that I ship Tyler/El Blanco is pretty much going to influence every fandom interaction. But, hey, true love is true love, right, even if it does involve man-eating graboids with prehensile tongues ::grin::
Ultimately, I love stories about people. Sometimes I want them to be doing awesome things, and sometimes I need to not much to happen at all apart from them just being.
I'd love to be able to say that the reason I write is some kind of higher mystical calling, but really, sometimes I just want Clint Barton on his knees, sucking Phil Coulson's cock like a motherfucker ::grin::
ravurian kicked me off for the month with "Talk to me about your writing. Fanfic only, or do you have original work, too? What are the stories that matter to you?"I love telling stories. I make them up inside my head constantly, and have done ever since I was a kid. I sometimes think that writing them down was simply a way to not be a pathological liar. ("What did you do at the weekend, Claire?" "Well, I rode a dragon all the way to a mystical realm and fought a war and became a queen!" "Really?" "No...")
I've thought about doing original stuff but, if I'm being honest, I like the ease of sliding into an already made universe, where you don't have to spend three pages describing what someone's hair looks like because if you say to someone 'Clint Barton' then they already have an image in their head.
(The caveat to this is that I still have some truly awful poetry that was written when I was younger, but I think most people have some of that hidden in their underwear drawer.)
I always find it kind of bemusing when people say "Oh, you should write your own stuff," because my response to them wants to be "Why? Why should I?" Part of me feels that they say that because they don't get fanfic and, in their heads, they're trying to legitimize spending time writing about fictional characters. I think it should be case of writing original stuff is you want to, if you have ideas for it, but certainly not because you get told you have to, or you should.
I write for movies, books and shows I enjoy, because I want to see more about the characters. Sometimes, it's because I'm watching or reading and my mind goes off into a tangent of 'ooh, but what would have happened if...' And, sometimes, it's because in a totally shallow way, I really would like to see Peter Hale riding Chris Argent like a pony, and I know I'm not going to get that from the show. So, if that means I've got to write it to be able to see it, then so be it.
When it all comes down to it, I like writing. I like writing stuff that other people will enjoy, I like writing stuff that other people will side-eye, and I even occasionally like writing stuff that possibly puts more of me on the paper than I'd like to admit.
I get the same clutch of panic in my gut each time I hit 'post' on a story. Admittedly, there are ones I panic about more. I always worry about the first story in a fandom. Will people like it, will they think it's terrible, will this influence every bit of interaction I'm ever going to have with someone in this fandom?
And then I have fandoms like Tremors, where the fact that I ship Tyler/El Blanco is pretty much going to influence every fandom interaction. But, hey, true love is true love, right, even if it does involve man-eating graboids with prehensile tongues ::grin::
Ultimately, I love stories about people. Sometimes I want them to be doing awesome things, and sometimes I need to not much to happen at all apart from them just being.
I'd love to be able to say that the reason I write is some kind of higher mystical calling, but really, sometimes I just want Clint Barton on his knees, sucking Phil Coulson's cock like a motherfucker ::grin::
